October is my favorite month of all. I love the feeling it stirs in my heart: the leaves, the (kind of) cool weather, the pumpkins, the pumpkin flavored everything, my birthday, the month Kevin and I started dating.. October holds so many things I love.
But this year, October has held a lot of heartbreak. From the Las Vegas Tragedy, to waking up to my best friend in the world crying hysterically telling me her father suddenly passed away, it’s been a very hard month already. So what do I do? How do I respond? Help me, Jesus. How do I hold up a banner of hope when I’m struggling to believe it myself?
I feel like I need to tell you that all of this pain, turmoil, unbearable grief, heartache, anger, and doubt was never God’s idea. He didn’t create us to hurt us. He didn’t want His children to have to endure this stuff. His heart for us is the total opposite of all of those things. It’s when sin entered the world when these monsters were born. These things meant to sever us from our Maker. That is why God so lovingly sent Jesus here to us, to form the bridge over the giant divide the enemy created, for us to come running back into His arms. That’s why the hope of Heaven is still here with us, a hope for better days to come. The best days are ahead, everlasting.
I’m learning that there are no perfect ways to heal and to grieve. There are no shortcuts unfortunately.
But there is Jesus. He changes everything.
As long as we are running towards the cross, there is so much grace to feel whatever we need to feel. As long as we are walking with community, at least one person pointing us to the arms of Jesus, there is so much healing there.
It’s okay to ask God “why?”
It’s okay to be angry. He can handle it.
It’s okay to cry for as long as we need.
It’s okay to laugh.
It’s okay to need our space at times.
Worship: The feeling or expression of adoration and honor
We must worship when we are angry. Worship when we are filled with doubt. Worship while we are weeping. Worship while we are joyful. Worship with our loved ones. Worship in solitude. We have to remember that God is God and that His ways are higher than our minds can fathom.
We were made for worship, friends. It is hard wired in our DNA. Worship can look like many things, as long as it’s our attention focused on God on His throne.
Healing the hurt and brokenhearted was Jesus’ speciality as He walked this earth. He cries with us, He walks with us, He sees our hurts and pains, He knows where we are at even when we don’t understand it. He is with us.
“She will give birth to a son, and they will call Him Immanuel, which means ‘God is with us.'” -Matthew 1:23
“No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love Him.” -1 Corinthians 2:9
“He heals the brokenhearted and He binds up their wounds” –Psalm 147:3